holy shit. my last update was 12 weeks ago! 12 weeks ago I cared about how I looked. then I came back to school, and all was shot to hell. I've been so busy between having to move all over campus and all my fucking classes. But today, my gym regiment starts again. I was with my boyfriend (yes, I got a boyfriend!!) for lunch and i had 2 of his chicken fingers and a few fries because he was worried that I wasn't eating. I ate that shit while I sat there in jeans that used to be large on me and are now extremely tight. I'm so pissed. I must weigh about 145-148 right now, and I really want to lose 10 lbs asap. I'm going to start eating my fiber pills whenever I eat (to shit) and I'm going to eat much much less. Problem is: baby loves to cook  & he spoils me with his delicious food. UGH! Anyways, Halloween is on Saturday and I want to at least look mildly attractive =X so I really need to eat a lot less and try to fast as much as possible this week. I'm going to skip dinner today so all I will have had were the 2 unhealthy chicken fingers and the fries. Fuck my life =( Wish me luck, ana.

starting ana boot camp tomorrow - 50 days!
nervous for when cape cod comes because jane will be there and that will be difficult to maintain, but im starting the 50 days and i am really very excited/nervous but more excited.

today was my last horrah - so binged a little on pizza  & ice cream.


so looking forward to tomorrow!


YAY AUGUST

who knew changing from a Biology major to an English major would cause me so much stress?


well anyways,
today i went to the gym
did elliptical machine for 50 minutes.
then lifted weights and did some crunches.
will do more crunches before going to sleep.
ate about 30 red grapes - maybe 100 cals?
then just liquid fasted for the rest of the day.
feeling good - too bad i gave into those grapes though.

need to be thin :) <3 fasting again tomorrow.
wish me luck, ive been hungry :(